"I am afraid of my own desire. That I am insatiable," she said. "There is a part of me that is always hungry. And I feel I must keep it hidden, so that it does not unleash all of a sudden".
Above quote is taken from a client suffering from Anorexia. I think quite a few of us can relate to being scared of showing our needs.
Scared that if we show our needs - our hunger for love, food, sensuality - it will be too much.
That people might say, "this is too many needs, you're on your own here". And we will be left feeling pathetic, naked and raw - having allowed someone to see how truly hungry we are - and them simply turning their back to us and walking away. All the while we are left there standing with all our scars and wounds on display.
I think that many of us suffer from the anxiety of "what if".
What if we will never be satisfied. What if we will always be hungry for more. What if we cannot stop ourselves. What if we are out of control. What if something is wrong with us. What if we are not loveable. What if...
So many what ifs. So much that gets stuck in our head - and everything we do not create action upon, creates anxiety.
The lack of action is what spirals anxiety out of control.
And we numb ourselves with our self-created thoughts of "what ifs".
Well, what if? What is the worst thing that could happen. Quite often, the what if of NOT doing is worse than doing what it is, we find so very scary.
Next time you find yourself stuck in your head with all these anxious thoughts spinning around - take action.
The thing we are scared of doing, is the thing we need to do, to let go of fear.
Fear has no power once we act on it - it simply dissolves right into thin air. And that makes us feel very powerful.
Try it, you just might like it.